This is just a regularly-scheduled blog update. No false cries of “I’m pregnant!” or “I’m engaged!” or “I got a sweet new job offer!” Just the same ol’ thing: it’s Friday, and I’m in grad school, single, and drinking a cup of coffee.
I would be lying if I said I hadn’t realized just how awesome certain people are. I’m getting a much better idea of what I want out of my next real relationship, but I’m also okay with just being myself for now. As I recently read, “Someone to accompany u on your journey is a plus, not a must. A true diva sings her own song til love comes along!” (via The Single Woman).
So that’s me. Doing my thing. Flirting a lot. Taking care of myself and focusing on school as much as I can. Oh, and having fun.
On a different note: I picked up my senior yearbook the other day. Most of the entries were things like, “Good luck in college,” “Call me this summer,” “You’re a good piano player,” etc. But there was one that stood out. One of my friends that I had been very close to in junior high signed it, lamenting that he wished we were “still tight like we used to be.”
He then closed it with, “I know you will do great with whatever you do. You are truely [sic] a unique person, I’ve never met anybody like you before.”
It struck me simply because of the depth. Most high schoolers wouldn’t say that to a friend, and at the same time, it’s exactly what I needed to be told. I spent most of high school thinking that something was wrong with me. The only thing that was “wrong” with me was that I was completely obsessed with my insecurity and perceived lack of acceptance from others.
In hindsight, though–and I finally started gathering this just in more recent years–people did truly think I was something else. And I am now at that point in my life where I not only think I’m something else, I know that I am something else. I joke and often tag the end of bios I write with, “May actually be a mythical creature,” but it’s a reflection of my personality and acknowledgement that I’m not like all the “others.”
I have always maintained that “when I grow up, I will be something awesome.” I never tagged a job or a concrete dream to that. It’s freeing that way. I’m glad I’ve had the experiences up to now that have shaped and molded me, and I’m incredibly thankful to have found a field like student affairs that encourages thinking differently as societies and cultures evolve.
Here’s to being great.