Prompt: Healing. What healed you this year? Was it sudden, or a drip-by-drip evolution? How would you like to be healed in 2011?
This entire blog is like a record of my quarter-life crisis; everyone should be aware of that by now. 2010 brought about transformation, as well as healing. Nearly a year ago, my already-kind-of-screwy-but-not-that-screwy life took some sharp turns. I needed to deal with the end of a significant relationship, a downward turn in my father’s health, my friends taking new steps in their relationships, grad school admissions, and making the decision to actually go abroad.
What healed me in the midst of all the confusion was the process of making meaning out of all that was happening. I like to find story lines in my life, and I like trying to understand the reasons things happen. Sure, it doesn’t always make perfect sense, and sometimes, even if it does, I don’t want it to. The fact of the matter is, though, that by thinking about these things helps me accept and appreciate the challenges in my life. Coming to terms with knowing that life will never be perfect and that I will always be learning has really helped me be stronger. It’s definitely been an evolution, one that has been on-going since I started college, I’m sure, with an acceleration in the past few years.
What do I hope for 2011? I’m not sure, really. I’m not going to abandon what’s been working these past few years, so I suppose all I can hope for is to keep bettering myself, keep making meaning, and keep on living my life in the best possible way. And maybe taking more time to adventure and explore, since that’s when I feel my best.