You’re Beautiful

Dec. 8th

Prompt: Beautifully different. Think about what makes you different and what you do that lights people up. Reflect on all the things that make you different – you’ll find they’re what make you beautiful. (The Beauty of Different @chookooloonks)

What makes me different than others? Oh goodness, haven’t I spent enough time reflecting on this in the past year?

Look at me– there is no one quite like The ‘Dith. I’m a Jack-of-all-trades– I write, I dance, I play music, I tell stories, I laugh, I thrive in the academic world. I dream of seeing the world. I daydream. I’m physically awkward, but I’m really cute, too. In the past few years, I’ve grown into a sense of confidence. I’m still working on outgrowing some insecurities, but what a world of difference from seven or so years ago. I’m always on some sort of adventure.

I’m driven like no one else I know. I have goals and dreams, but I try to live day-to-day. Sometimes, I worry that my passion for what I want to “do” or “be” will make me miss out on love– and I’ve been likened to the character of Robin Scherbatsky. In all honesty, though, I’m more of a Lily Aldrin. I’m just missing the whole “love of my life” piece, but like Lily, I went through a crisis (a.k.a., a decision-making point in time) in which I wasn’t quite sure what I wanted to do. I tried to run from the obvious (education) and went in circles for years, until I finally arrived at the fact that I wanted to work in higher education. Sure, I still possess some tomboyish aspects– but that’s because I was cast out by other girls for being smart. And being smart is weird in the world of children. How obnoxious is that?

One other thing that I really value about myself is the fact that I grew up in such a mixed household, generationally- and culturally-speaking. As I’ve said many times before, I have a lot to prove as the daughter of someone from The Greatest Generation. (I’m just lovin’ up on Wikipedia today, aren’t I?) It puts a lot of pressure on me, but it’s pressure that I can handle. I believe that cultural fluidity and empathy are key to the success I’ve found up to now.

I was blessed with a unique name, a unique family, and a unique personality. I’m writing my own unique story, and I’m not in any hurry to end it. This is what makes me beautiful– the ability to step back and appreciate what I have and where I’ve been. I’m making meaning out of these life lessons, and while it may be overwhelming at times, it is all worth it.

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