Prompt: Let Go. What (or whom) did you let go of this year? Why?
Just a brief response because otherwise, this will get convoluted.
This is the year that I let go of ridiculous timelines for my life. They have not been eliminated in full, but I am trying so hard.
Of which timelines do I speak?
I’m talking about timelines that dictate when I should have a stable job or when I should be married and juggling a career and thinking about children. Timelines saying that when I’m done with grad school, I’ll do this, this, and that.
When I left college, I thought timelines would be great. I would work until C finished school, then we would move together as I went to grad school. Once I was done there, we would get hitched, and then we would find a place where we could both find work.
And then, kablam-o. It ended. And I had no contingency plan. I was not prepared for the hiccups, and that’s when I began to realize that I could not control much of my life. Even today, I still fall prey to the mindset of looking too far into the future. That’s why when something goes “wrong,” I find myself anxious, nervous, and incredibly depressed.
But I began the process of letting go, and it’s making a difference.