Just Let Go

Dec. 5th

Prompt: Let Go. What (or whom) did you let go of this year? Why?

Just a brief response because otherwise, this will get convoluted.

This is the year that I let go of ridiculous timelines for my life. They have not been eliminated in full, but I am trying so hard.

Of which timelines do I speak?

I’m talking about timelines that dictate when I should have a stable job or when I should be married and juggling a career and thinking about children. Timelines saying that when I’m done with grad school, I’ll do this, this, and that.

When I left college, I thought timelines would be great. I would work until C finished school, then we would move together as I went to grad school. Once I was done there, we would get hitched, and then we would find a place where we could both find work.

And then, kablam-o. It ended. And I had no contingency plan. I was not prepared for the hiccups, and that’s when I began to realize that I could not control much of my life. Even today, I still fall prey to the mindset of looking too far into the future. That’s why when something goes “wrong,” I find myself anxious, nervous, and incredibly depressed.

But I began the process of letting go, and it’s making a difference.

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