Back in January, I introduced my theme for 2010, Believe in the Impossible. It’s just shy of four months since I wrote that post, so why not do a quick check-in?
At the beginning of 2010, at the Stratejoy workshop I attended, I let go of a lot of negative energy that built up while I was living on my own in Everett. I also made a list of other things that were bothering me that I planned to address. Unfortunately, several of those things proved themselves to be true when I found myself very single. It was incredibly upsetting to realize what I had been feeling was all true. However, by waking up every morning and reminding myself to just believe in the impossible, I was able to take time to reflect, grow, and ultimately, heal much quicker than I thought.
I was doubtful in the beginning that I could ever love again, that I could ever find someone with whom I would want to share my hopes, dreams, and soul. Could I be brave enough to put my heart out there one more time?
Short answer: yes.
In addition, I now realize that I am able to face my fears and succeed.
Did I get into graduate school? Yes, and not only that, I was accepted to a program that really resonates with me. I got an assistantship, I am entering a field that I am passionate about, and so far, my fellow classmates seem just as excited about student affairs as I am.
Did I leave the country and travel alone to a foreign city? Yes. Did I make new friends in the city? Yes. It is still surreal sometimes to think, “I am in Europe. I have been in Madrid for almost a month.” How did this happen? Simply, I didn’t shrink away from the opportunity. Even though it was nerve-wracking, I did it. I’m here, and I’m mere days away from visiting Erin, then traveling to Germany to spend several days with Super Ninja, then embarking on a travel whirlwind with another friend. This is crazy.
But it’s definitely not impossible.
And I won’t stop here. No more telling myself “I can’t because…” If I want something to work, I can make it work.