After a wonderful holiday season and a good friend’s wedding, it seems that 2010 has gotten off to a bit of a rocky start.
My dad had a stroke while C and I were at the wedding and while my mom was gone. That was hard to deal with, and I hadn’t told many people about it.
And then last night, C and I broke up. Although I’m completely torn up about it, I know where he’s coming from. It’s been hard being apart, and he’s in a point in his life where he’s not sure where he’s going. I have a general idea of what I want to do, but I guess I’ve really just wanted to hear that whatever happens, we’d be together. It sounds naiive, and I suppose that’s right. I don’t even know where I’ll end up in a few months, regarding graduate school, and I guess it’s not fair to tie down two adventurous 24-year-olds– no matter how awesome we both are.
Maybe it’s not for good, and maybe it’s one of those “in another time” things. Or maybe it’s a Ted/Robin thing where we’ll still work out our friendship in untold awesome ways. Of course, right now, I just want to be with my friends and focus on healing and trying to move on. Like Andrea said, “Everyone has a “one” before The One. You know… that one you THINK you’re going to end up with… but really they are just practice.”
It seems hard, but like I said just a few days ago: Believe in the impossible.
Oh, by the way, I chopped my hair off and I love it.